11/06/2021
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1mYz1X_CE0
10/30/2021
it’s crazy how the reason i’m here is such an afterthought because of you.
10/25/2021
back to the boxes.
10/23/2021
The weather today is meditative grey. Perfect to let the screens fall out of my head. Burnt out with boxes.
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feel more intoxicated than the last time, every time
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it's human nature to seek comfort and security. We are afraid of the unpredictable.
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10/21/2021
lol i almsot died
10/20/2021
getting my car fixed tomorrow.
everything is very good :)
10/14/2021
i never learned how to talk,
so be patient with me
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u know everything is a lot better when you listen to what you were listening to a few months ago and hate how it sounds
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what i like about masks is that when im out and daydreaming nobody can see the giant smile on my face
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grad schools still easy, but i dont like my ta class, i like the class im taing - and i like the class im taking
very chill very cool.
katies getting into special fish hopefully today? that's super exciting
vp lost lol
10/06/2021
isn't it strange how someone can just come into your life all and become important to you in a small window?
That's what makes life interesting. There is always a reason to be hopeful for the future.
10/04/2021
it's 1040am right now, everything is going really well im really excited. hopefully more good
to come in the coming weeks :) i love special ifsh becasue i know nobody reads this so i can just type whatever
anyways this girl ive been talking to is amazing omg - everytime were together it's actually intoxicating i dont
understand how this works, ive genuinely never felt like this before. nice sweet girl, covered in tattoos- shes always
busy but thats like the most attractive thing you could say. aaaaaaaa we might be studying together later today.
im cing 100gecs on saturday w a couple of the homies from 102 and a kid i met here up in davis. everything is going
great, better than i expected, but i didn't really expect anything i just knew it was going to work out. this goes
beyond my expectations
10/01/2021
excited for what this month has to bring
9/24/2021
wow what a day
9/23/2021
really excited for the next few months.
first few weeks were pretty hard.
i met some really really genuine people and i can't stop thinking about them
really glad i met them
school started yesterday.
TAing is fun, moreso than my classes, but i'll get back into it.
9/20/2021
we're all gonna make it, brah
9/9/2021
second day here
not sure- weird to be back at school
might have to go back to get my passport
i want friends
8/15/2021
am i?
7/29/2021
I'm fine
7/13/2021
kill your ego
find yourself
6/27/2021
lots of changes going to happen in a few months..
5/4/2021
I think it was the first time I realized that I can change the world
Or at least change the way you and my sister hit the clock on every tick just to see what happened
The time has really flown by I guess and it's hard to think of the way it might've been or remember very specifically the words and all the rest of it
I was down, more than I wanted to be probably
That is what we do with it all together, like the orange trees in the backyard and it's easter and it just won't end
4/19/2021
commited 2 davis today :)
still waiting on ucsb and usc but idk idk i wanted to apply to housing for davis
if i get it (#12 on waitlist) ill b living w 3 other graduate students (if i go to davis)
kinda exciting!
worknig is hard :/ but its vibes
what else
aeropress is so much fun
woohoo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t0jAPZUCubQ&list=RDt0jAPZUCubQ&start_radio=1
4/15/2021
goo
PXE
sublime
twin fantasy? i dont full understan this album only heard it for the first time this week
etc
etc
legalizek
4/10/2021
i will get into ucsd
4/6/2021
my baratza grinder came in today, will be making even more coffee than I have been recently... My kettle should
probably arrive this week? I'm not actually sure when it will come, but I am excited for it... Merged two pull
requests today :) Gonna wake up early tomorrow for the Acne Archive, then after that I plan on just starting work
whenever i'm done with the archive, so probably around 7:30am???? Want to merge 2 more things tomorrow, one is already
90% done and I have a really good idea as to what I need to do for the other one... Trying my best :P
UCDavis is most likely where i'll end up for my MS CS.. Other schools I am waiting on are UCSB, UCSD, UCLA, USC
I think I have a chance at USC and UCSB, but UCSD and UCLA are basically near none. Not really expecting USC or
UCSB though... So go Aggies! They have their own campus beer? Really interesting looking forward to going there in the
fall.... But for now I just want to become a better software engineer, and do well at this company :) Still don't know
what I plan on doing w/ the money earned be it save, use during my MS, save 4 house speedrun, or just buy a miata or
some other stupid car. Realistically I think i'll just save it and use it during my MS... Have been listening to a lot
of shoegaze recently, I think this genre has overtaken the grateful dead in terms of casual listening because it fills
the same musical itch when just trying to relax, and it's also really good for intensive listens as well..
mmr 25xx
4/5/2021
nvm i got into uci and ucdavis, not sulking anymore- life is good need to work harder but all is good
oh and im rlly into coffee now and i got an xbox
3/22/2021
finished my undergrad, don't really care because i don't know why actually. Started my internship today,
great company i'm looking forward to it a lot. really just disappointed and tired with graduate school admissions
all of my friends that applied to our undergrad for grad got in but me, not sure what my profile was lacking,
not getting into other schools either hopfully i'll get lucky and get in somewhere else.
lots of stuff happening but i'm stuck dwelling on this :/
mmr 2570
3/10/2021
having a very decent week, my friend went to a lake/river/body of water now i want to go to a lake/river/body
of water because that sounds very peaceful and relaxing. I also made a funny tiktok, it wasn't appreciated as
much as i had hoped.
3/09/2021
pls someone email me
3/4/2021
Excited less than a fortnight away from finishing my undergrad! And a week after that I'll start a nice wfh job!
New striped shirt coming in the mail tomorrow, as well as a couple of cassettes on monday.
mmr 27xx
2/15/2021
pretty tired today, had a lot of things that I wanted to get done- but I got none of them done. Oh well.. I guess that will be for tomorrow.
mmr 2740
2/9/2021
midterm tomorrow for database structures then after that a few hours after I will have a meeting with cristian for DARPA BETR almost everything is done for that,
I just need to fix two tiny little bugs with the ASANA api and the project will be a successs. I fucked up and I submitted the wrong file for my second lab for
database systesm resulting in me losing 3 points out of a total of 14 and I had already just lost one point for incorrect answer so I got a 10/14 instead of a
13/14 kinda cheesed. Emailed the TA hoping shell adjust it for me, but I doubt tthat will happen. Studied all day today for the midterm I beleive taht I will
d fine on it, but this lab2 news kinda messes everythnig up grade wise becvasue I fully expected to get a 13 or 14 on the lab. Thios brings myaverage down a
significant bit... oh well.... Grading for CSE16 and grading for CMPM 80a are both going really well adn there are no isseus wit hthose things. Finish my
undergrad in 35~ days which is super exciting, but also no really covid really fucked this whole year up and these past probably 5 or so weeks have finally started
to get to me. I just want to know where im going to grad school, know if my grad school will be in person, and I also want to find work for the 6ymonth gap
that I will have between undergrad and grad school. this sucks. I hope mattson will just take me back, I will email them about it on monday. My os class is
actually hard, databases isnt a difficult class, but os is very time consuming and difficult. I have a lab due monday that was assignned many weeks ago and
I have yet to start, :(, oh well I'll get that done, bascically these next 7 days are probably going to be the busiest I will be until finals? After march
17th though I am complete I will have a degree, hopfully be able to work at some company for 6 months then become a graduate student... Idk a lot of uncertainty
right now and it all really sucks, hopfully it will all end soon and I'll start feeling better.
mmr 27~~
1/6/2021
I have a lot to type and i keep putting this off, hopfully i'll have the motiviation to type it up soon
mmr 2620
12/6/2020
omg i fucked up and I didnt realize that the quarter ends THIS week I thot it was next week... So I've done like 20 hour worthn of work in past 30~ hours
becasue its all due on monday. I also did one of my interviews for jp morgan chase was kinda vibes they asked me a leetcode medium but im just mode = vibe
I got my spoptify wrapped and my resutls are pretty cool hah... All thats left in this quarter is quiz 5 and finish my final paper whic hi need to startr wortking
on today because its due tomrorow hahahahah but im in a dota game now cuz i wanted to relax after hard grindign for so long so wish me luck in that. besides that
drinking a yerba mate rn. 450k till 99 slayer will prolly get that after my quiz on thrusday and hoenstly im just realyl excited to go skiing this winter season and
start my last quarter of undergrad. still really interested in whats gonna happen if im gonnab a neet or wat?
start of day 1
mmr2960
11/24/2020
:)
mmr2980
11/14/2020
need to do artifact #4, grade, and do whatever crap for 185. besides that in a good mood, drinking coffee excited for vibes! ive started to take slayer
a little bit more seriously now, im doing all my jad tasks and even barraging some of the barrage tasks~ Crayz but I realized that I should unironically
finish magic off before I get slayer done or else I'll be like alching or some garbage bahahahaha. dota 2 ive been picking clinkz mid and this heroes bustd
omg i got 2 rampages in 3 games! looking forward to the week, listening to trance music rn. crazy ey? day 7 rn going strong kinda vibing through it feels good
don't know how long i'll keep this up but at least 21 days ya? well c just trying to have a good time!
start of day 7
mmr 3080
11/10/2020
i have an interview in 30 minutes, kinda excited for it but no real worries, i'll probably get the job.. if not o well. doing good in ai now i think
this class is around what i expected of difficulty now. quizzes are easy assignments are a little harder. i think i want to start applying to spring/
summer internships asap, because you can't improve your life if you stagnate or get complacent, it's the worst thing to do. you need to challenge your-
self. also thinking about getting into hearthstone again, i got 97 slayer 2 days ago thats fun :) planning on going hiking on either friday saturday,
really looking forward to that! this week, interview, study for quiz, take quiz, hike. those are the main things for this week and some side tasks
i want to start working on, emailing people to remind letter of recommendation, apply to spring summer internships, maybe load up hearthstone, im not
sure about that one, but we shall c
start of day 3
mmr 3040
10/21/2020
instead of going for a drive yesterday, I went to go skateboarding and instead I fell and my hands r injured :( I am also working on my AI assignment
pretty causally rn. It's not that hard but it seems very daunting, hopefully tomorrow after my presentation I can grind it out
mmr 3020
10/20/2020
it's tuesday, and almost got everything for the week done.... All I need to do now is present, but that has always been on thursday so no worries
and I need to start on my assignment #2 for ai.. whatever ill do it. feeling decent, kidna tilted rn but thats life isnt it :D i think ima go drive
mmr 2990
10/19/2020
got a lot to do this week. not that much actually, its less than I had to do last week but Life's tough so it feels like a lot...
finished all of my grad school applications. All I need to do now Is draft one of my letters of recommendation and i'll be officially
done with the process. presentation this week, and I need to catch up on my grading for 131, doing that RN. I don't know if I have any
real goals right now.. Besides the tasks I need to be doing I'm not currently striving to do anything. maybe that's why lifes feeling
a little shitty. Hopfully I figure something out eventually. Currently listening to holly gabrielle on youtube as busywork sounds.
Maybe I need a haircut and a new set of shower stuff to feel refreshed I honestly don't know I'll definitely look into it.
im spending almost all my money on food now, instead of buying material things probably a step up? I used to spend a lot on clothes.
signing off not sure what else there is to say just need to get my work done
MMR 2990 (should be 3050 but +60 game didn't end up counting because coordinator went down)
9/29/2020
had a good day, today was margarita monday... Went to sc got some margaritas and tacos, margaritas were better
than the tacos. Then we went to the record store and I got 4 new tapes! Got burgerIM on the way back, yummy.
Then right before i took my shower I bought two more tapes, online, $70~ limited release so whatever. 99 cooking tomorrow!
MMR 3220
9/25/2020
School starts in 6 days... Thinking about what I have left to do. Need to write essay to get into grad school,
and need to just finish last two quarters of undergrad to be done. took the gre a few weeks back, kinda cool
happy enough with the score i think. I've gotten better at stick shift, it's lots of fun to drive. I also had
the travis scott meal and I threw up from it and havnt had mcdonalds since. So ya, need to finish applying to grad
school and need to finish undergrad those r my goals. I would also like to find a remote position doing something
while in school, be it a programmer or a grader again I think that would be cool, to make some money because I don't
really want to spend the money I made during summer.. Also matts moving to nevada and I had lunch with him today and wished
him luck :) hopfully all works out for him.
MMR 3130
9/8/2020
it's been a minute since I came on here... Studying for the GRE rn, need to ask professor for letters of
recommendation. Really missing Santa Cruz RN. Would kill to go to a forest party. Besides that been kind of
vibing;;; made a lot of money at work, (retired now), school resumes Oct1st. Hopfully I go somewhere cool for
grad school. My GRE scores are currently a tossup no idea what I will get, but yolo. will probably drink tonight
pink whitney or maybe just regular vodka. Getting the travis scott burger meal from mcdonalds for dinner.
I have a stick shift car now, havnt had any time to drive it, its also 2 hot and the seats are leather so the car
is basically unusable RN. Went on a 5 mile hike today, and also went to the dentist to get my teeth cleaned.
7/5/2020
made a budget for the week. Hopfully I can stick to it.
Had my first week of work, then I had an entire week off thanks to 4th of july week :)
got paid spent $225 on an outfit, saw my girlfriend, went on adventures; all around not a bad two weeks
Tomorrow I start my second week of work, will try to get chic-fil-a for lunch tomorrow if time allows
for it...trying to spend $150 as an upper limit this week.
6/17/2020
I have a headache, but it's probably going to be ok.... Will drink plenty of water
need to shower later today as well! Found out I got all As this quarter :)
Tomorrow I'm going to get iced coffee and maybe a donut and pizza pie!
6/12/2020
Got a last-minute summer internship! really excited! They subsidize food and the
cafeteria looks very yummy... Decent pay as well!
5/31/2020
today i broke social distancing rules but i don't really mind..
quiz 4 tomorrow. . . it's 6:37 pm and i have yet to study
5/30/2020
listening to Habit-Snail Mail
my @cat girlfriend has three surprises for me and she wont tell me and I am upset about it!!!!~!
woke up late.. Pretty tired, but excited to see where the weekend takes me!
I need to study for my cse102 quiz 4 this weekend but besides that I don't have any work
5/29/2020
Glad it's friday!