pavel

30.11.2021 ~ remorse

Lying in my bed half awake right now. Idk what’s up but the second half of today really sucked.

First 10~ hours were fantastic- thanks guys i dont know what I would do without both of you.

Massive wave of dread filled the day
Pounding headache
Napped for 3 hours
Took advil
Craziest thing ever. I think this is the most stressed I’ve ever been in my life and this doesn’t even feel like a good reason.. nothing I have to do is that difficult. I keep throwing up over and over :,: and I know that when I get stressed it tends to be bad, but this is just ridiculous.

I really hope everyone else is doing better.

It’s almost Saturday.

Damn
Whyd my mind have to go to that.. I wish you could see how we’re all doing.. Kevin’s doing good, Ken’s got a house, miles is in Hollywood,Garrett’s off in the big apple.. Isaac’s in Vegas I’m pretty sure.
I’m really happy

Remember the gas station?
When we staked the ely?
The boxing gloves?
Ceasar Chavez?

Miss you bud, not just me everyone does

Can’t wait to see what tomorrow brings

I hope Jasmine is doing ok…
Miss her as well

What a great person..